One One One One

Every New Year's Eve I write a journal entry, no matter how lackadaisical I've been about them in the past year. (Even this year, when I've been a super slug.) I usually write them into the same journal, but this year I will grace the internet with my annual thoughts instead.

I feel as if this year is the first one I have actually looked back on my past self with an objective eye. I've realized many things I've done aren't that great, but some aren't that bad. I've said in recent years that I feel grown up or old for the first time, but this year I truly feel like I grew up. That maybe I deserve to be named a year older. Even though I didn't take many new steps, I think looking back on my old steps has taught me new things.

I want to make 2011 my own year, but I don't know if I'm brave enough to do that yet. I want to be the leading lady in my own life instead of the best friend (thanks, The Holiday). I want to act instead of react, and stick with my decisions. Let's hope I can gather the gumption before 2011 gets too far along.